Gratitude

There is almost nothing that gives as much gratitude than feeling the trembling hand of the new man through the Lords Prayer at the close of a meeting…

I often get caught up in my daily routines, I forget where I came from, I forget that where I’m at doesn’t look a THING like where I was.  Everything I have today I owe to Alcoholics Anonymous.

Gratitude

Gosh has it ever been a while since I’ve posted. Life has really come at me fast and I’ve been really busy living it.

My wife and I had a beautiful baby girl on January 16 of 2007 and she’s been the absolute joyous gift from God. I can’t begin to tell you how happy I am that she’s finally arrived. She’s growing up so fast. I’m grateful to be able to be a part of it. To witness it. To actually be aware of it.

Thanks God!

Faith without works is dead

Let’s look at Steps Eight and Nine. We have a list of all persons we have harmed and to whom we are willing to make amends. We made it when we took inventory. We subjected ourselves to a drastic self-appraisal. Now we go out to our fellows and repair the damage done in the past. We attempt to sweep away the debris which has accumulated out of our effort to live on self-will and run the show ourselves. If we haven’t the will to do this, we ask until it comes. Remember it was agreed at the beginning we would go to any lengths for victory over alcohol.

What it was like near the end of my drinking

I didn’t know for sure what my problems were but I wished for the end.  I looked for a jumping off place.  I no longer looked into the night sky and wondered what my purpose was.  Life didn’t mean anything and my life was certainly going nowhere good.  All my so-called friends didn’t want me around any more.  At one point, in a black-out, I’d gone to my best friends house at 1:30 in the morning and pounded on his door till he opened it.  He and his wife and young daughter had been sleeping soundly till my insistant pounding woke them all up.

What it was like…Continued

In fourth grade, my parents officially started the divorce proceedings and it was painfully obvious to me that all my classmates would know I was from a defective home and would be made fun of because my parents could work out their problems.  I came to realize much later in life that I somehow labeled my own self-worth by how I thought other people were judging me.  My parents fought for years because my of my fathers drinking.  They would often start an argument and dad would leave for a loaf of bread and might be gone for 30 minutes or 30 days. 

What it was like…

I used to be the only one I knew awake at 3:00 in the morning… I’d be incredibly bored, looking for something FUN to do.  The liquor stores were way closed and I was usually out of money.  All the friends I’d started the evening with we’re all passed out or had gone their seperate ways – Usually with their dates.  I would stare at the stars in the sky and wonder why on earth was I put here.

New Blog

I’m biting the bullet and taking on another website project.  I dumped the last one because it was nothing to do with recovery and was not productive at all. 

I will dump this one too if it turns out to be a big flop.  I’m just looking for ways to be more effective.

Daily Trudge

During the past 2 years, my life has been blessed beyond belief. Even though I’ve been sober for quite a few years, I’ve just recently been rocketed into a life so much more wonderful that I would have ever been able to imagine… Yes folks, it just keeps getting better.